Post by Rosaliz Hernandez G6 on Feb 28, 2008 21:00:13 GMT
Rosaliz was exhausted. Her night at her aunts and the fact that she had not slept in over twenty-four hours had worn her to her last nerve. Reality blurred. The facts of the previous evening… sneaking out of the castle fighting off her aunt…It seemed too improbable… it seemed too impossible to believe that it could be real. Yet what was happening now here in the Three Broomsticks, it seemed equally false. ..It was filled with other students walking around and talking with loud voices that seemed to echoe through her mind painfully. All in all it had become almost painful for her to sit and that place as whenever she tried to think she would get a headache from all the noise.
A distraction, that was what she needed. A big, huge, monstrous distraction to take her mind off of everything that had been running through it lately. Lately, or more specifically after she'd been attacked during her last year at Hogwarts, Rosaliz had been skeptical of everything. Every time she went somewhere, she couldn't help but wonder if the person she was standing next too was waiting to pounce at the chance to cause her the worst pain imaginable. Paranoia followed her no matter where she went. She had left hogwarts for a distraction; Either way, she wanted to rest and had a hard time figuring out whether or not she should go home and come back to hogwarts next year, staying back a year or to stay here in Hogsmeade and throw herself in the presence of other people. In which she hadn't been in her best "looks" lately. It didn't matter people had seen worse. Her breathing quickened and she could hear her heart pounding away in her ears...
She tried slowing her breathing to no avail and momentarily her mind wandered off. Was she just a freak who couldn't deal with what could be considered a mere scratch in the wizarding world, the only world she thought she knew and understood? Was it true. Was she actually turning weak? Did her aunt finally made her into the vulnerable state that she had been waiting for? Was she crashing, and wasn't going to be able to go back to her normal life? Will all her friends just end up like strangers? Nobody would know her anymore and she would be left alone to suffer?.... About five hours age all her goals had been simple: keep herself , lead herself out of danger, find herself a healer. All her troubles would be solved. She realized that she didn’t know what her goals were or what they should have been. "Focus for a sec, Rosaliz" she thought. Rosaliz flinched, her hand tightening on a wand that wasn’t there any longer. Where was her wand? She remembered she had left it in her dorm. She wasn’t going to take a risk on taking it with her. She knew she wouldn’t be able to control her emotions at that very moment. Her thoughts were inconsistent.
“I’m not hurt,” Rosaliz insisted, for perhaps the hundredth time. The pain from her cuts and bruises had become background. Even the throbbing from the deep gashes in her legs failed to register as something she should worry about. She was light-headed both from blood-loss and lack of sleep, not to mention being thrown about from spell fire but that was nothing in comparison to what she’d seen. “I’m not hurt,” she insisted and she lifted a weak hand against her head fussing. “I’m not the one…” But even her protests were tired and unfocused She lifted her good hand as if to stroke her cheek, but drew it back when she realized just how filthy and stained with dried blood her fingers were. She stared at her hand, wondering where all the blood had come from, not realizing how many cuts that she still had.
((sorry it's so short))
A distraction, that was what she needed. A big, huge, monstrous distraction to take her mind off of everything that had been running through it lately. Lately, or more specifically after she'd been attacked during her last year at Hogwarts, Rosaliz had been skeptical of everything. Every time she went somewhere, she couldn't help but wonder if the person she was standing next too was waiting to pounce at the chance to cause her the worst pain imaginable. Paranoia followed her no matter where she went. She had left hogwarts for a distraction; Either way, she wanted to rest and had a hard time figuring out whether or not she should go home and come back to hogwarts next year, staying back a year or to stay here in Hogsmeade and throw herself in the presence of other people. In which she hadn't been in her best "looks" lately. It didn't matter people had seen worse. Her breathing quickened and she could hear her heart pounding away in her ears...
She tried slowing her breathing to no avail and momentarily her mind wandered off. Was she just a freak who couldn't deal with what could be considered a mere scratch in the wizarding world, the only world she thought she knew and understood? Was it true. Was she actually turning weak? Did her aunt finally made her into the vulnerable state that she had been waiting for? Was she crashing, and wasn't going to be able to go back to her normal life? Will all her friends just end up like strangers? Nobody would know her anymore and she would be left alone to suffer?.... About five hours age all her goals had been simple: keep herself , lead herself out of danger, find herself a healer. All her troubles would be solved. She realized that she didn’t know what her goals were or what they should have been. "Focus for a sec, Rosaliz" she thought. Rosaliz flinched, her hand tightening on a wand that wasn’t there any longer. Where was her wand? She remembered she had left it in her dorm. She wasn’t going to take a risk on taking it with her. She knew she wouldn’t be able to control her emotions at that very moment. Her thoughts were inconsistent.
“I’m not hurt,” Rosaliz insisted, for perhaps the hundredth time. The pain from her cuts and bruises had become background. Even the throbbing from the deep gashes in her legs failed to register as something she should worry about. She was light-headed both from blood-loss and lack of sleep, not to mention being thrown about from spell fire but that was nothing in comparison to what she’d seen. “I’m not hurt,” she insisted and she lifted a weak hand against her head fussing. “I’m not the one…” But even her protests were tired and unfocused She lifted her good hand as if to stroke her cheek, but drew it back when she realized just how filthy and stained with dried blood her fingers were. She stared at her hand, wondering where all the blood had come from, not realizing how many cuts that she still had.
((sorry it's so short))