Watch As I Drift Away ((Closed))

[kyra]

((This takes place the day after the Not What I Would Have Thought post in a hospital not very far from Hogsmeade.))

Kyra clung to the sheets of the small hospital bed. After Kyra had been placed in the Hospital Wing the night before, Chloe had come and gotten her. Kyra didn’t remember this of course as she awoke from her sleep in the hospital. She pulled her hand to her eyes as everything began to come back to slowly. Light poured on Kyra’s face until finally she obliged to the light, and opened them. At first, Kyra was had a hard time remembering everything that had happened, but the not so distant memories flooded her brain fast enough. Tears drenched her face as Kyra started to remember everything she had done, everything she had said. It all seemed so unreal to her at first. Like, it was all a dream, kind of. That’s the why Kyra saw it at first, but that all changed when Kyra eyed her cut up arm that was somewhat covered in bandages. Some of the scars were old and didn’t need to be healed, but the two new fresh cuts went deep enough into the skin enough that Kyra needed the bandages. It didn’t take much longer for Kyra to notice different things about herself. Like the fact that she still had bruises that remained all over her body and that her leg hurt very badly. When she reached for the skin of her leg, Kyra winced and held her head at the sudden headache that was thrust upon her. For a moment, Kyra didn’t dare move. Her head throbbed in pain. After a moment, she began to move again, but the pain came back. She let out a small yell of pain and then moved about as to try and shake it from her. Finally, she gave in and closed her eyes.

Kyra awoke what seemed like an hour later. She felt sort of numb as if she had been given some medication in her sleep. She woozily lifted her hand to her head. Why had her head hurt so much? It didn’t hurt for the moment. No, in fact Kyra couldn’t feel a thing. She had never felt like this before. She had never felt so weak and like the whole world was crashing in on her. A feather could knock her over she felt like. Kyra felt her breaths so sharp and pin like. She just didn’t feel normal. She felt like a sick little puppy and Kyra hated the feeling. But, she didn’t dare fight leaving the hospital. She wasn’t ready. She was physically or mentally ready to leave. And she wouldn’t be for awhile, Kyra knew this. But, why did she still wanted so badly to run. Kyra knew she had a problem now. She wanted to face it, but then again, she wanted to run. But, she didn’t understand why running would feel so good. Would it?

Kyra winced as looked over at her nightstand. She noticed a folder file with her name on it and picked it up. Kyra eyed the chart with a number of different things scribbled on it. It read:

Name: Kyran Kaydee Stone
Age: 15
Birth date: October 14th 1883
Legal Guardian: Clarissa Stone Thomas-missing.
Temporary Guardian: Chloe Stone
Place of Birth: Hogsmeade
Place of Residence: Hogsmeade

Injuries/Possible Diagnosis’s:
Self Mutilation
Starvation- Possible Anorexia Nervosa
Bruises
Concussion
Possible broken leg- x-rays to determine
Tests will determine other problems..

Kyra’s mouth fell open at the last word one the chart. She noticed a nurse walk into the room. Her name tag read Madalynn. Kyra pointed at the lady, but it was still hard for her to get the words out of her mouth. Madalynn rushed over. “Hey, don’t push it!” She ordered. “You have a lot of problems girl. What you’ve been doing to yourself is no joke. Plus, now we have to look into more severe health issues to make sure exactly what’s wrong with you.” She said shaking her head. Kyra noticed the concerned look on Madalynn’s face. She was looking at Kyra as if she were a freak. This scared Kyra, but she was too much into the other words that she had read. “Self Mutilation?” She asked. Madalynn nodded. “Well, that’s what you’ve been doing to yourself, right?” Kyra didn’t respond. She continued to read the chart. “I’m not anorexic.” She stated plainly. “We’re not saying you are yet, but you haven’t been eating, so we have to get a Physiologist in to see if she thinks you weren’t eating because you want to loose weight or you just weren’t eating. Plus, she has to talk with you about the cutting anyways.” This bothered Kyra. “I just didn’t feel like going to get food, is all.” She explained with one hand on her throbbing head about the not eating. Madalynn shook her head. “Sit still, you’re still weak.” She said nodding. “I’m going to go check with the techs, see if it’s time for your tests.” She stated as she left the room. Kyra watched her sadly as she left.

Kyra’s hand was still on her forehead as a doctor rushed in. “Hello, Kyra. I don’t suspect that you remember me.” He said pulling up a chair and flipping through Kyra’s chart. “Dr. Halpurn.” He said simply as he took out flashlight looking thing and poked it near Kyra’s ears to check them out. Kyra didn’t care much and just sat there. “You were pretty out of it when your aunt brought you here last night.” He explained. Kyra nodded as she tried hard to make words. “Easy.” He coaxed. She sighed. “I don’t remember.” She said softly. He nodded. “No, I knew you wouldn’t. You were barely awake according to some students when you left that school of yours. They took you to the school hospital, but your aunt thought that under these circumstances, you would be better off here for a few days.” He said eyeing her. “A few days?” She asked. He nodded. "Your problem is serious, Kyra. “Plus we think you had a minor concussion from hitting your head on the floor or something. No one actually saw you hit it so we aren’t sure what you hit it on. Do you remember?” He asked. She shook her head. “No, that’s okay.” He said calmly. “Well we will be taking you in for tests shortly and the psychologist will be here soon after that.” He said nodding as he left the room. What did I get myself in to? Kyra thought silently.

[kyra]

Kyra eyed the lighted halls as they wheeled her back to her room after her x-rays were complete. They wouldn’t yet let her walk which frustrated Kyra. Plus, she was still hooked up to her IV. Kyra could do nothing more than go along for the ride. She still felt nauseous. She felt just ill, plainly, that was the way to put it. Everything made her feel sicker than she did before. Kyra could see the looks on people’s faces as she passed. Just the sight of her seemed to make people eye her. Did she really look that bad? Did they know? Kyra just felt as if everyone that looked at her knew. The idea sickened her of course. She didn’t want anyone to know. But then again, everyone near her hall knew. She could hear the whispers. Kyra was one of the oldest patients in the children’s ward and some how they knew. When Kyra passed some concerned looking parents, she knew they knew and that she wasn’t just making it up. Kyra placed her hand to her head as she felt another headache coming on as they wheeled her back to her room.

“Kyran Stone?” A pointed nosed lady asked as she walked into the room. Kyra was sitting in her bed drinking water which was basically the only thing they would let her have to drink so far until they knew more. She shook her head, her true personality coming back to her. “Kyra.” She managed to make out. The lady nodded. “Pricilla Montez.” She said taking the chair by Kyra’s bed. Kyra nodded. “I’m here to ask you some questions, get some answers.” She said plainly. Again, Kyra nodded. Pricilla took out a ledger pad and Kyra already felt as if she wanted to bolt. “Okay, so let’s start with, how are you feeling?” She asked. Seriously? How was she feeling? She was in the hospital souped up on IV full of who knows what and getting over a concussion! For heaven’s sake, was that the question that was seriously just asked? Even thought Kyra wished to scream that exact answer, she felt if she did that she would throw up. Everything had to be done in moderation for her. She felt as if she had the ever lasting flu. Kyra eyed Pricilla pondering if she would answer. She finally gave in. “Oh terrific.” She could make out nothing more. “That sounds passive aggressive, why is that?” Was she serious. Okay, now Kyra would say what was on her mind. “Because I’m in the freakin hospital with a stupid head ache that pops up every three seconds and they don’t know what the hell else is wrong with me yet!” She startled herself screaming. Then, she felt her body collapsing onto the sheets. Madalynn rushed in. “That’s enough for now!” She screamed to Pricilla. “You’re always over doing my patients, she’s not ready yet!” Madalynn continued as she coaxed Kyra to sit back up and adjusted her pillows. “You okay? Headache?” She asked as Kyra placed her hand back over her head. She nodded. Madalynn nodded and then moved to leave the room. She paused. “Go Pricilla. She’s not ready for your stubbornness yet.” She announced firmly. “Are you her doctor?” Pricilla asked a better than you voice. Madalynn shook her head. “I’ll leave when I’m done.” And with that, Kyra knew that she would have a long rest of the morning.

Pricilla was pounding question to question on Kyra, but she hadn’t yet asked anything too dramatic. Well, until this moment. “So, why did you do it?” She finally asked. “Why did you cut the first time?” Kyra knew she would regret saying anything, but she wanted Pricilla to leave, right? Get this over with kid. Kyra told herself. “Because.” Kyra started. Pricilla eyed her. “C’mon Kyra. I won’t tell anyone.” Kyra gave in. “Because I had an abusive step-father. He hit me hard, cracked two ribs and then took off with my mum and baby sister. That’s why it say’s missing guardian on my file. Because, she’s gone.” Kyra paused. “That night, I couldn’t deal anymore. It was too hard, it hurt so badly. Layne, my sister, was the only one I had besides Chloe. I didn’t have mum, not really. She knew that Blade was abusive. He hit her too, but not Layne. But, she didn’t say anything. She could have saved herself and I could have too, but I didn’t. She didn’t. She finished was tears rolling down her cheeks. “That night, it just felt so right to cut. It just did. I felt my pain leaving me. I felt powerful for once, and I liked it ” She paused. Kyra watched Pricilla write her words down as tears continued to cascade down her face. She hated talking about this. She really did, but she needed to get this off her chest now. So, maybe, she wouldn’t have to speak of it again. Pricilla eyed Kyra sadly. “What about your eating? Why haven’t you been eating?” She asked Kyra sighed. “I just didn’t want to go downstairs and get food. I didn’t want to leave my dorm room and I didn’t really care about it at the time. I don’t care about my weight or my body or figure, I just didn’t feel like eating. I’ll eat whenever they let me, okay? I just couldn’t bring myself to go to the dinning hall at school is all.” She said confidently. Kyra knew her words were true. Pricilla nodded and wrote stuff on her ledger pad. She then eyed Kyra. “We’re done for now, I think.” She said standing up. “I’m not going to diagnose you for Anorexia Nervosa yet because your emotional and physical evidence doesn’t really say much that you are. But, I’ll have to wait and see to be certain of the results. As for the cutting, you’re defiantly a cutter and the hospital will ask that you stay in therapy. But, for now, you just need to get better. I’ll be back tomorrow.” She said nodding to Kyra and then leaving the room.

“Here.” Madalynn said moment later as she walked into Kyra’s room carrying a tray that included cereal, vanilla pudding and an apple. “They want to rebuild you nutritionally. So, you eat only what I bring you. No, candy or junk from the machines. Your need to gain at least ten pounds back before they will even let you go.” She said nodding. Kyra lifted her hand to her head. Madalynn shook her head. “They need to figure out what’s wrong with your head.” She sort of said to herself as she left the room. Kyra sighed as she picked up the apple and softly took a bite. Just then, Kyra smiled as Chloe walked in. “Hey.” Chloe said with a concerned look on her face. “Hi.” Kyra replied as she took another bite of the apple. “You okay?” She asked taking a seat. Kyra nodded. For a few minutes, silence lingered. Finally, Chloe gave up. “I wish I would have known. I knew how much pain you were in. I could have stopped you.” She said crying now. Kyra shook her head. “No, you couldn’t have Chloe. “It over took me completely Chloe. I couldn’t have stopped if I wanted to.” She said as new tears began to leave her eyes. “Really?” She asked. Kyra nodded. “I’m scared for you Kyra.” Chloe admitted. “Don’t be. I’m going to get through this Chloe, I will.” Kyra announced as Chloe leaned over and hugged her. “I will.”

[kyra]

((This post occurs the day after the first two.)

“Kyra..” A soft voice called to her. Kyra shifted in her sleep as the voice called again. “Kyra, it’s me.” She shifted around. Suddenly, a glowy light surrounded the figure as everything began to take focus around a white backdrop. “Layne.” Kyra called as she ran over to her sister. “Kyra.” Layne said crying in her weak voice. Kyra pulled her baby sister tight to her and hugged Layne hard. “Layne, I’ve missed you so bad.” She said softly. Layne nodded in the hug. “I missed you.” Layne said in her little kid voice with tears streaking her face. Layne pulled back after a few seconds. Kyra eyed her with a tear stained face. “Help me.” Layne said softly. Kyra shook her head ever so lightly. “What?” She asked. “Help me.” Layne repeated. Suddenly, Layne seemed to be drifting away. “Layne. Don’t go.” Kyra stated. Layne continued to drift off. “Sorry, Kyra.” Kyra tried to run to her. “Layne no! I need you!” She called. But, it was too late, Layne was gone. She had faded from Kyra once again. “Layne!” Kyra screeched, but it did no good. She fell to the floor crying to pain. “Layne!” Kyra shifted more as she was waking from her nightmare. “Layne! Layne!” She screamed as she jolted back and forth. Nurses were rushing back and forth trying to give her medication and help to soothe her. Chloe walked into the room. “What is wrong with her?” She asked frantically as Kyra continued to scream for Layne. One nurse tried to push Chloe away. “Leave. You can’t see her like this. We’re dealing with it. Now, go.” She ordered. Tears fell down Chloe’s face. Chloe left the room as the nurses crowded around Kyra as doctors began to swarm the room as well.

“Keep her still! Keep her still!” Nurses were calling as they were rushing all over Kyra trying to soothe her. Kyra kept moving back and forth muttering to herself over and over. She was awake, but she wasn’t aware that she was. Chloe was pacing outside of the room as Dr. Halpurn walked out. He ignored Chloe’s presence and continued to walk down the hall. “Dr. Halpurn wait!” Chloe called after him. He paused and looked back at her. “Ms. Stone this really isn’t the time. I’m trying very hard to save your niece right now.” He said without stuttering. Chloe looked at him with amazement. “Excuse me?” She blurted out with a hurt look on her face. “You heard me right Ms. Stone. On top of the rest of her problems, it seems that she has had a horrible reaction to something. We’re trying desperately to slow her heart down. It’s racing like a horse.” He explained. “I need to go find Dr. Lillan now. She’s better with this kind of case than anyone else.” He said with a small amount of panic in his tone. Dr. Halpurn turned and walked away. Chloe stood there in shock. She shook her head forcefully as she eyed the doctor as he walked. Then, she walked to Kyra’s room and stared through he slightly cracked door. Kyra was jolting about. Tears left Chloe’s eyes. “Kyra, what have you done?” Chloe said aloud as she cried.

Chloe stood pacing about the hall as twenty minutes had passed and no news had come out of the room that was now shut closed. A lady doctor finally left the room. “Ms. Stone?” The lady asked holding Kyra’s chart in her hand. Chloe nodded. “Yes?” She said briefly. “I’m Dr. Lillan.” She introduced herself. Chloe nodded. “What’s wrong with her?” Chloe asked upfront. “It seems that the medication we put Kyra on for recuperation from her Self Mutilation, backfired. It caused her to have a seizure.” Chloe’s eyes bugged out. “What?” She exclaimed. Dr. Lillan out her hands up. “She should be okay.” She started. “But, the seizure lasted nearly five minutes which is bad in the seizure world. On top of everything else that is wrong with her, she needs to stay here for at least a week maybe two.” She stated. “This cutting hurt her bad. Did you have any idea that she was doing it? She asked. Chloe shook her head. “None at all.” She stated clearly. Dr. Lillan nodded. “Most family members don’t. And since Kyra didn’t live at home, there was no possible way for you to see any of the signs.” Dr. Lillan sighed. Kyra sighed. “I should have known.” She said. Dr. Lillan sighed. “She’ll be on a very close watch for the remaining time that she’ll be here. When she goes home, she needs to rest for a good week or two and then maybe, she go finish school for the remainder of the year, but I’m not sure if that is wise yet.” She nodded. Chloe nodded. “You can go see her.” Dr. Lillan pointed to the room. “But, she’s pretty out of it right now.” Chloe nodded and then headed towards the room as Dr. Lillan walk away.

Chloe walked to Kyra’s side as Kyra laid sleeping. Tears fell down Chloe’s face. Kyra shifted, but her eyes remained closed. Chloe eyed her. She looked so pale, so weak. Chloe had never seen Kyra look so helpless. She had never really been the helpless kind of person. Well, at least she had tried not to. Chloe sat in the chair beside Kyra. Just then a nurse walked in. She wasn’t aware of Chloe’s presence for a moment. “Oh.” She gasped. “Well, if you’re in here, then I don’t have to be. Doctors orders, she can’t be left alone at all. It’s too risky right now.” The nurse explained as she left the room. Chloe nodded absently. Kyra stirred and Chloe smiled lightly as she opened her eyes. For a moment, Kyra didn’t notice that Chloe was there, and then she realized. “Chloe..” She said blankly in a raspy voice. Chloe smiled. “Kyra, you okay?” She asked. Kyra blinked her green eyes. “I think so..” She said coughing a bit. Chloe reached over and took Kyra’s hand. “Why did you have to go and do that, eh?” She asked smiling. Kyra sighed. “I’m sorry, Chloe. I’m so sorry..” Kyra rambled. “Shh..” Chloe soothed her as she continued to hold her hand. “So sorry.” Kyra continued. “Shh..” Chloe went on. “I’m here. It’s not your fault.” Chloe said. Tears fell down Kyra’s face as she listened to Chloe words. “But it is.” Kyra said blankly.