Post by Anastasia Castlerock R4 on Sept 11, 2007 22:05:04 GMT
Play it cool, Stacey. You know he will. Public displays of affection don't exactly go with dark and twisty – and if you know anything about Rex you know that's what he's like. . . like a teddy bear with razors in its belly. Rex was complex but intriguing, with many layers and depths and secrets, even after three years of knowing him, Stacey was still surprised by what he said and did at times. I wonder if he's changed at all over the –
Rex!
They rushed over her like a tidal wave, powerful and completely overwhelming, warm and happy and a hundred different emotions she couldn’t name all wrapped in one when she saw him. She'd never known she'd missed this much, never could have imagined how wonderful this moment would be when she finally saw him again and could feast her eyes on him all she wanted and know they had a whole academic year to be together again. Little thrills broke out all over her skin and her smile lit up her face and she was surprised to feel her eyes slightly moisten – Rex! Dangerous but charming, the man of many depths, the man of her dreams – Rex! How could a person have such a hold on someone else, how could a person surround you and consume your thoughts and energy so much even if they weren't there? All thoughts of pride or decorum disappeared. Before she knew it she was running towards him, grinning like a fool, throwing her arms around his neck his long blond hair in her face as she held him to her.
A stream of memories flowed into her head, three years starting with Rex and ending with him and filled with him, the first person she'd talked to when she'd entered this world, the only person she really wanted to meet when she came back, to hear his voice and his stories and his jokes and have him in her life again.
She was nervous but she was hiding it, and she looked at both of her parents and stifled a sigh of exasperation. Her father was worrying too much and her mother was worrying too little, and she could sense the tension between them and really hoped they wouldn’t get into one of their heated altercations right now in front of all these people she didn’t know. The train had already arrived but her parents weren't quite ready to let her get on yet.
"Stacey, princess, you don’t have to do this… aren’t you happy at home with all your friends and with me? Don't I make you happy princess you know I can give you anything you want or need, you don't really need to go to this school, I'm happy just the way I am without this – magic – in my life," he pleaded with her. He seemed to know he wasn't going to get anywhere but was unable to stop himself from trying for one last time.
No you're not. And neither is Mum. And I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but at least it's a way to be away from both of you.
"Dad, I'm not doing this because of what Mum said - it's because I want to and I'm excited and please please please don't ruin this for me," she said. Part of her understood her father's reluctance – he hadn't been to Diagon Alley, he hadn’t seen all she'd seen, a world of potions and charms and magical creatures, he hadn't found a wand that chosen him to be its owner; he couldn't begin to understand why she needed to join this world and it was not something that she could easily explain to him. And yet her mother was no better, she felt the two were arguing simply to be right, somewhere deep down they did care about Stacey, and yet now they were caught up in being right rather than what was the right thing for their daughter. It was almost funny to see them together; Stacey could never in a million years imagine how her father and mother had thought they could share their lives together.
She could see her Mother's gloating smile even though she tried to hide it and Stacey felt a slight resentment building in her that she pushed down hurriedly. They were not allowed to make her feel upset. What they said and the way they acted did not affect her in any way – she would not be divorced child with the problems, it wasn't who she was, she was a happy, well-balanced individual, and people perceived her as different not because of the divorce or anything related to that, but because they were too conventional and boring and afraid of everything new or different.
"You're going to have a great time Stacey, and I'm sure you'll write and tell me all about it, I've never seen Hogwarts, and magical schools are all different," her mother said. She was certainly ruffling her ex-husband's feathers; the thought of just one school of magic had him disconcerted; the thought of more than one magical school seemed to positively alarm him. It was hard to tell whether or not she really meant Stacey was going to have a great time because she was looking smugly at her ex-husband. Stacey tried to ignore the whole situation and make up a story in her head, but there was too much going on around her for her to be able to focus. Her eyes drifted over the many families with their parents coddling them and laughing with them and Stacey couldn’t wait to get onto the train – she noticed a boy looking out of a window at her and her mother and father. Her father pulled her into a quick hug stopping her from looking back at the boy.
Her father let go of her and it was her mother's turn. It suddenly hit her again that she was completely on her own – she wasn't scared, she was excited but… she also felt a little strange. She wasn't exactly looking for a friend's company but it would've been nice to have someone right now as she embarked on this journey. Her parents were getting into a scuffle about something again but she couldn’t hear them – a large bell had sounded and people were getting onto the train. Stacey let out a low sigh of relief. Both her parents dropped their argument and turned to her with the same concerned expression. They both had the same final words of advice. "Don't get into trouble, Stacey," they said.
It was almost surreal to see them both saying the same words. It was almost a pity she was going to ruin the moment.
"You know I will," she said, a mischievous grin lighting up her face for the first time since they'd arrived. The last thing she saw of them was their shocked faces. At least thingsdidn't end with them fighting. She turned around to find herself a compartment and found herself face to face with the boy that she'd noticed looking down at them before.
"Nice parents, did you mean what you just told them?" he asked her, his eyes dancing with mischief. The word nice was obviously sarcastic.
"You don't even know me and you're making fun of my parents?" Stacey asked.
"I don’t think you particularly care – I know more about things like this than you'd think. Anyway, are you going to stand there for long or are you going to join me in my compartment where my new friend and I are up to no good?" he asked.
Stacey smiled and joined Rex in his compartment.
The hug lingered too long for a friendly hug and yet she let go reluctantly of him, the feel of his arms around her was something she got too little of and she wanted so much more.
"Hello, Billy," she said with a cursory glance in his direction and a quick perfunctory smile. "I've saved us seats, in the front compartment like you like Rex, you can sit by the window, you don’t need help with your luggage? How was your summer? Did you get that Zonko's package I sent you? I only sent one pack from Honeydukes, but they didn't have any more of those chocolates you like so much – anyway, you talk now. Tell me everything," she said happily. It's so good to see him.
All those girls that crushed on Rex and deemed themselves worthy of his attention – they wanted him because he was funny, unexpected, adventurous, a dare-devil if there ever was one, unafraid of anything and anyone. And yet all those girls failed to see Rex as Stacey saw him, she saw all of those things in him but she knew there was a scarred individual inside, with a temper that could scare the hell out of anyone, but there was much of him that he didn't show anyone; he kept his secrets and wounds well-hidden and even Stacey didn’t know everything about him but she had a strong and deep conviction that she knew him better than anyone else and that nothing he could say or do would drive her away. She didn't know why she didn’t find the fact that he had a sad and mysterious past alarming or reason to keep her away, she couldn’t completely rationalise why she wasn't like the girls that fell for him because he was popular and loved him simply because he was like a hero in a badly-conceived romance novel – good-looking but mysterious, a hero that just needed love to get over his wounds and heal and live happily ever after. She knew that most of the girls who liked Rex would run as fast as they could if they knew the real him. But for her it was a challenge to get him to see that they were meant for each other – not because she wanted to win him and rub it in the face of the other girls, but because in her mind they were truly perfect for each other. It was the inside jokes, it was that they got each other's eccentricities, it was that they accepted each other's mood swings and strange opinions without judging or getting scared of each other. Stacey didn't really believe in soul-mates or love for a long time judging by her parent's marriage and divorce and her mother's subsequent marriage, and then she'd met Rex. Stacey loved being different, she didn't mind at all what people thought, and then she'd met Rex and found he was almost exactly the same way. Maybe there was someone for everyone if you looked hard enough. Maybe this year he would finally realise that they were meant to be together.
Rex!
They rushed over her like a tidal wave, powerful and completely overwhelming, warm and happy and a hundred different emotions she couldn’t name all wrapped in one when she saw him. She'd never known she'd missed this much, never could have imagined how wonderful this moment would be when she finally saw him again and could feast her eyes on him all she wanted and know they had a whole academic year to be together again. Little thrills broke out all over her skin and her smile lit up her face and she was surprised to feel her eyes slightly moisten – Rex! Dangerous but charming, the man of many depths, the man of her dreams – Rex! How could a person have such a hold on someone else, how could a person surround you and consume your thoughts and energy so much even if they weren't there? All thoughts of pride or decorum disappeared. Before she knew it she was running towards him, grinning like a fool, throwing her arms around his neck his long blond hair in her face as she held him to her.
A stream of memories flowed into her head, three years starting with Rex and ending with him and filled with him, the first person she'd talked to when she'd entered this world, the only person she really wanted to meet when she came back, to hear his voice and his stories and his jokes and have him in her life again.
**Four years ago**
She was nervous but she was hiding it, and she looked at both of her parents and stifled a sigh of exasperation. Her father was worrying too much and her mother was worrying too little, and she could sense the tension between them and really hoped they wouldn’t get into one of their heated altercations right now in front of all these people she didn’t know. The train had already arrived but her parents weren't quite ready to let her get on yet.
"Stacey, princess, you don’t have to do this… aren’t you happy at home with all your friends and with me? Don't I make you happy princess you know I can give you anything you want or need, you don't really need to go to this school, I'm happy just the way I am without this – magic – in my life," he pleaded with her. He seemed to know he wasn't going to get anywhere but was unable to stop himself from trying for one last time.
No you're not. And neither is Mum. And I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but at least it's a way to be away from both of you.
"Dad, I'm not doing this because of what Mum said - it's because I want to and I'm excited and please please please don't ruin this for me," she said. Part of her understood her father's reluctance – he hadn't been to Diagon Alley, he hadn’t seen all she'd seen, a world of potions and charms and magical creatures, he hadn't found a wand that chosen him to be its owner; he couldn't begin to understand why she needed to join this world and it was not something that she could easily explain to him. And yet her mother was no better, she felt the two were arguing simply to be right, somewhere deep down they did care about Stacey, and yet now they were caught up in being right rather than what was the right thing for their daughter. It was almost funny to see them together; Stacey could never in a million years imagine how her father and mother had thought they could share their lives together.
She could see her Mother's gloating smile even though she tried to hide it and Stacey felt a slight resentment building in her that she pushed down hurriedly. They were not allowed to make her feel upset. What they said and the way they acted did not affect her in any way – she would not be divorced child with the problems, it wasn't who she was, she was a happy, well-balanced individual, and people perceived her as different not because of the divorce or anything related to that, but because they were too conventional and boring and afraid of everything new or different.
"You're going to have a great time Stacey, and I'm sure you'll write and tell me all about it, I've never seen Hogwarts, and magical schools are all different," her mother said. She was certainly ruffling her ex-husband's feathers; the thought of just one school of magic had him disconcerted; the thought of more than one magical school seemed to positively alarm him. It was hard to tell whether or not she really meant Stacey was going to have a great time because she was looking smugly at her ex-husband. Stacey tried to ignore the whole situation and make up a story in her head, but there was too much going on around her for her to be able to focus. Her eyes drifted over the many families with their parents coddling them and laughing with them and Stacey couldn’t wait to get onto the train – she noticed a boy looking out of a window at her and her mother and father. Her father pulled her into a quick hug stopping her from looking back at the boy.
Her father let go of her and it was her mother's turn. It suddenly hit her again that she was completely on her own – she wasn't scared, she was excited but… she also felt a little strange. She wasn't exactly looking for a friend's company but it would've been nice to have someone right now as she embarked on this journey. Her parents were getting into a scuffle about something again but she couldn’t hear them – a large bell had sounded and people were getting onto the train. Stacey let out a low sigh of relief. Both her parents dropped their argument and turned to her with the same concerned expression. They both had the same final words of advice. "Don't get into trouble, Stacey," they said.
It was almost surreal to see them both saying the same words. It was almost a pity she was going to ruin the moment.
"You know I will," she said, a mischievous grin lighting up her face for the first time since they'd arrived. The last thing she saw of them was their shocked faces. At least thingsdidn't end with them fighting. She turned around to find herself a compartment and found herself face to face with the boy that she'd noticed looking down at them before.
"Nice parents, did you mean what you just told them?" he asked her, his eyes dancing with mischief. The word nice was obviously sarcastic.
"You don't even know me and you're making fun of my parents?" Stacey asked.
"I don’t think you particularly care – I know more about things like this than you'd think. Anyway, are you going to stand there for long or are you going to join me in my compartment where my new friend and I are up to no good?" he asked.
Stacey smiled and joined Rex in his compartment.
****
The hug lingered too long for a friendly hug and yet she let go reluctantly of him, the feel of his arms around her was something she got too little of and she wanted so much more.
"Hello, Billy," she said with a cursory glance in his direction and a quick perfunctory smile. "I've saved us seats, in the front compartment like you like Rex, you can sit by the window, you don’t need help with your luggage? How was your summer? Did you get that Zonko's package I sent you? I only sent one pack from Honeydukes, but they didn't have any more of those chocolates you like so much – anyway, you talk now. Tell me everything," she said happily. It's so good to see him.
All those girls that crushed on Rex and deemed themselves worthy of his attention – they wanted him because he was funny, unexpected, adventurous, a dare-devil if there ever was one, unafraid of anything and anyone. And yet all those girls failed to see Rex as Stacey saw him, she saw all of those things in him but she knew there was a scarred individual inside, with a temper that could scare the hell out of anyone, but there was much of him that he didn't show anyone; he kept his secrets and wounds well-hidden and even Stacey didn’t know everything about him but she had a strong and deep conviction that she knew him better than anyone else and that nothing he could say or do would drive her away. She didn't know why she didn’t find the fact that he had a sad and mysterious past alarming or reason to keep her away, she couldn’t completely rationalise why she wasn't like the girls that fell for him because he was popular and loved him simply because he was like a hero in a badly-conceived romance novel – good-looking but mysterious, a hero that just needed love to get over his wounds and heal and live happily ever after. She knew that most of the girls who liked Rex would run as fast as they could if they knew the real him. But for her it was a challenge to get him to see that they were meant for each other – not because she wanted to win him and rub it in the face of the other girls, but because in her mind they were truly perfect for each other. It was the inside jokes, it was that they got each other's eccentricities, it was that they accepted each other's mood swings and strange opinions without judging or getting scared of each other. Stacey didn't really believe in soul-mates or love for a long time judging by her parent's marriage and divorce and her mother's subsequent marriage, and then she'd met Rex. Stacey loved being different, she didn't mind at all what people thought, and then she'd met Rex and found he was almost exactly the same way. Maybe there was someone for everyone if you looked hard enough. Maybe this year he would finally realise that they were meant to be together.