Post by Padme Rendel S2 on Oct 14, 2005 21:13:31 GMT
Dearest Tessa,
I feel as if I should explain the addressing of this letter first before I go into some sort of conversation. To be honest, I attempted to put 'Mother' on the envelope but it didn't look right. This letter hopefully won't be intercepted, so here I can spill out the many feelings racking through my mind. You see, I simply couldn't address it by mother, since you are most definitely not my mother! It's rude to lie, be a scandal. Does that sound familiar Tessa? I dearly hope so. You destroyed my life, my pride and poise. I can't stand knowing that the mansion down the street could have been mine. You robbed me of everything! Roger knew of me, but he didn't try to take me back because I was nothing to him. I wasn't an heir, so he didn't need me. He only wants Jack. I don't know why you wanted me, but I am not grateful that you took me away from my family. I belong in that money hole. Instead, I live in a two-story house of reasonable size but it's hard to stand up to the other Slytherins that are rolling in money. I'm left out, maybe the only Slytherin that is close to dirt poor. I have to make the money in our house, while others stay home all day, crimping their hair and making themselves look even better. I'm robbed of luxuries that should have been mine! And for that I hate you, Tessa Rendel!
I didn't send this letter just to be negative toward you. I may hate you, but that doesn't stop me from worrying about you. When I last saw you, there was no farewell, no good tides, no happy ending to my period of life with you until summer. I wish there had been, for I would have been in the least able to forget a little bit. Never will I forgive. Instead, I stared at a locked door for a while, bitterly wishing you could at least come out and say good-bye to me. Now, I'm spiteful and obsessed about you. I have to remind myself you are not my mother, but a fake lying thief! I go to bed thinking of plans for revenge while in the morning I wish you hadn't told me everything. I am torn in two just because of you! Did you even hear about my new singing career? I really doubt it. I don't ever wish to see you again. Never! I want you out of my life for a long time. I may miss you at first, but I will convince myself not to. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore. Once, I was the little girl who dreamed of her lost dad and mom somehow coming back together. I miss thinking about Jack as my brother, meeting him at parks and conversing about things happening to our family. But it's his family, not mine! I don't belong here. Why didn't you set me free? Why? Why did you erase my memory of the court meeting? You had no right too. Were you afraid I would guess something? Most of all, you had no right to erase Jack's memory of that day. What if I told him about all the secrets you have? He wouldn't want to be your son any longer.
Please, get well. I'll keep most of the reasons to myself about this. So, don't even ask in your next letter, which I will expect to see in about a week or sooner. Hogwarts is wonderful and exciting, a thrill really. Not that you care what I think. Never have you done otherwise. Thinking I'd never find out about you and Daphne was foolish and false hope. I'm not the little girl I was. I'm older now, more wise. Never before have I felt so weak, but one things for certain. Never will I forgive you. It's a promise I will always keep.
Padme
P.S. Did I tell you I was in Slytherin? Aren't you just a little proud?[/size]
I feel as if I should explain the addressing of this letter first before I go into some sort of conversation. To be honest, I attempted to put 'Mother' on the envelope but it didn't look right. This letter hopefully won't be intercepted, so here I can spill out the many feelings racking through my mind. You see, I simply couldn't address it by mother, since you are most definitely not my mother! It's rude to lie, be a scandal. Does that sound familiar Tessa? I dearly hope so. You destroyed my life, my pride and poise. I can't stand knowing that the mansion down the street could have been mine. You robbed me of everything! Roger knew of me, but he didn't try to take me back because I was nothing to him. I wasn't an heir, so he didn't need me. He only wants Jack. I don't know why you wanted me, but I am not grateful that you took me away from my family. I belong in that money hole. Instead, I live in a two-story house of reasonable size but it's hard to stand up to the other Slytherins that are rolling in money. I'm left out, maybe the only Slytherin that is close to dirt poor. I have to make the money in our house, while others stay home all day, crimping their hair and making themselves look even better. I'm robbed of luxuries that should have been mine! And for that I hate you, Tessa Rendel!
I didn't send this letter just to be negative toward you. I may hate you, but that doesn't stop me from worrying about you. When I last saw you, there was no farewell, no good tides, no happy ending to my period of life with you until summer. I wish there had been, for I would have been in the least able to forget a little bit. Never will I forgive. Instead, I stared at a locked door for a while, bitterly wishing you could at least come out and say good-bye to me. Now, I'm spiteful and obsessed about you. I have to remind myself you are not my mother, but a fake lying thief! I go to bed thinking of plans for revenge while in the morning I wish you hadn't told me everything. I am torn in two just because of you! Did you even hear about my new singing career? I really doubt it. I don't ever wish to see you again. Never! I want you out of my life for a long time. I may miss you at first, but I will convince myself not to. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore. Once, I was the little girl who dreamed of her lost dad and mom somehow coming back together. I miss thinking about Jack as my brother, meeting him at parks and conversing about things happening to our family. But it's his family, not mine! I don't belong here. Why didn't you set me free? Why? Why did you erase my memory of the court meeting? You had no right too. Were you afraid I would guess something? Most of all, you had no right to erase Jack's memory of that day. What if I told him about all the secrets you have? He wouldn't want to be your son any longer.
Please, get well. I'll keep most of the reasons to myself about this. So, don't even ask in your next letter, which I will expect to see in about a week or sooner. Hogwarts is wonderful and exciting, a thrill really. Not that you care what I think. Never have you done otherwise. Thinking I'd never find out about you and Daphne was foolish and false hope. I'm not the little girl I was. I'm older now, more wise. Never before have I felt so weak, but one things for certain. Never will I forgive you. It's a promise I will always keep.
Padme
P.S. Did I tell you I was in Slytherin? Aren't you just a little proud?[/size]
