Post by niki on Nov 12, 2005 22:58:27 GMT
Hey Helen! Well, I'm writing you the weekly letter you requested at the beginning of the year. Personally, I don't think it's necessary, but you do so I'll continue them anyway. It does help improve my writing skills so that's a bonus. And I miss you anyway. I know this is my sixth year at Hogwarts, but that doesn't mean i don't miss you and the town. Sometimes, I feel bad that I have to lie to them. I wish I could just tell them the truth on what I am and where I go every year. Hopefully, they are still buying the Boarding School in Australia story. Send Frankie and Lilla my love as always and tell them I will be home all next summer. Do you think there is a way for me to write them? I can't exactly send them a owl so maybe there is a solution. Oh, I could send you a letter to send to them! Then I could finally talk to them. They always say they miss me during the school year and don't understand why I can't write. So, that seems like a good solution. Tell me what you think.
So, Hogwarts is good. I'm doing well in my classes as usual. I wish I wasn't such a little smartie, but I can't help it. You always told me my mom was a book nerd. Maybe I got my writing from her. I mean it defiantly wasn't from the dad you never talk about. I don't get it, Helen. You never even mention him. I need to know about him, Helen. You knew your dad so why can't you even tell me about mine? All I know about him is that he was a rebel child and mother loved him dearly. Grandma told me that before she died. So, how come grandma told me stuff about him and you can't? I know I'm full of questions but I deserve to know about my own father! What if someone asks me about him? I'm a supposed to say I never knew him and my aunt won't tell me what happened to him? That's crazy Helen. I mainly sent this letter to tell you that.
I have decided that I must know who he is. I don't even know if he is alive, Helen! I know you can tell me something. Please. It's weird I feel like both my parents rejected me. Sometimes I think back and try to remember my mom. I remember the last time I saw her. I think I was four. She was sick and I brought her flowers. Over the years, I have come to understand why my mom gave custody to you, but I never understood how she became that sick. Grandma told me it had something to do with my father. Did he hurt her? Helen, I feel abandoned sometimes. I feel like my mother and father didn't love me and you love me too much. You have always told me that it doesn't matter or he's out of your life so forget about him. But, it's not that easy. Remember when Uncle Nathan died? I know you remember in the hospital room that night. I was holding his hand and he said, "Take care of your aunt because she loves you too much." I have now figured out that meant that you love me so much that you will hurt yourself. You know everything I am after and I know it hurts you. Just let it go Helen! Just tell me. I'm sitting here it tears. I'm confused and hurt. You did that, Helen. Ok, I have nothing more to say. Write when you can, I guess.
Your niece,
Niki
So, Hogwarts is good. I'm doing well in my classes as usual. I wish I wasn't such a little smartie, but I can't help it. You always told me my mom was a book nerd. Maybe I got my writing from her. I mean it defiantly wasn't from the dad you never talk about. I don't get it, Helen. You never even mention him. I need to know about him, Helen. You knew your dad so why can't you even tell me about mine? All I know about him is that he was a rebel child and mother loved him dearly. Grandma told me that before she died. So, how come grandma told me stuff about him and you can't? I know I'm full of questions but I deserve to know about my own father! What if someone asks me about him? I'm a supposed to say I never knew him and my aunt won't tell me what happened to him? That's crazy Helen. I mainly sent this letter to tell you that.
I have decided that I must know who he is. I don't even know if he is alive, Helen! I know you can tell me something. Please. It's weird I feel like both my parents rejected me. Sometimes I think back and try to remember my mom. I remember the last time I saw her. I think I was four. She was sick and I brought her flowers. Over the years, I have come to understand why my mom gave custody to you, but I never understood how she became that sick. Grandma told me it had something to do with my father. Did he hurt her? Helen, I feel abandoned sometimes. I feel like my mother and father didn't love me and you love me too much. You have always told me that it doesn't matter or he's out of your life so forget about him. But, it's not that easy. Remember when Uncle Nathan died? I know you remember in the hospital room that night. I was holding his hand and he said, "Take care of your aunt because she loves you too much." I have now figured out that meant that you love me so much that you will hurt yourself. You know everything I am after and I know it hurts you. Just let it go Helen! Just tell me. I'm sitting here it tears. I'm confused and hurt. You did that, Helen. Ok, I have nothing more to say. Write when you can, I guess.
Your niece,
Niki