Jordan...

[JordanCortes]

Lil sis!

Hey, Jordan, how's everything up at school? Jason keeps coming over asking for you and we always say the same thing "she's at school. Won't be back for a few months." And he always says the same thing "Send her my love okay?" I swear, that boy is obsessed. What did you do to him to make him that way?

Maybe you should write him a letter, and we could give it to him the next day he comes over. He really misses you, and it seem that you won't let him back in your life...did he do something so horrid as to you not accepting his apology? It's like a mini soap opera and everything. I'm on the edge of my seat with anticipation of this romance. Your brother on the other hand, is not, he has his hsot gun ready if Jason ever trys to put "the moves on you". He cracks me up sometimes.

Well, Rosa and I are going out shopping for some reason and she's here to pick me up. I will talk to you soon and don't forget you're helping me pick out the wedding dress in three weeks! I love you lots and make sure you give Snooks my love as well, that darn cat....

Toodles,
Pat

[JordanCortes]

Big sis!

He seriously does that? Wow, I never rea- no, I won't say it.I'm thoroughly mad at him. You really want to know what I did that makes him want me? I didn't welcome him back with open arms. I didn't smile when I saw him. I scowled and spit on him, only kidding about the spitting part. I turned my nose up at him and walked away. And when he said he missed me, I yelled at him.

What did he deserve to be yelled at? You ask, me P. Well, when he moved away, he didn't say good bye. He didn't call me or anything. All he did, was leave a small box of my things on his front porch and a picture of him. I was hurt and crushed and all that jazz because, I thought I was in love with him. Oh well, he's a jerk and he's back and he expects me to love him like I used to, but I won't. But, if he misses me that much I will write him a letter. Just, not tonight...I'm too tired and worn out to write him a letter.

Anyway, there is too much stress going on right now to worry about Jason. Katie and I are still fighting but, it's much worse now because, of us always seeing each other here. She is yelling at me because, I have become your friend and that I actually enjoy your company. Rosa and I have learned to accept you and we love you to death! Why can't she? I just can't believe her arrogance. It's horrible. I just don't know what to say to her anymore. It's like...unspeakable.

Well, I must go now and face the horrible battle of which is Sibling Rivalry, I will write that letter to Jay soon and you shall read it. And have him write one back, I mean what kind of letter is it if he doesn't write one back. Not one. Oh, and I haven't forgotten about the dress. And that is also when I get mine right? Haha, gotta love me.

Toodleloo,
Jordan

[JordanCortes]

Lil sis!

He did that? Hmm, then he does deserve to be yelled at. You can yell at him whenever you want. He is getting quite annoying with the whole stopping by routine. Half the time I pretend I'm not here, which usually works, until he invites himself in and eats the food in the refridgerator. That boy is arrogant and well, a pig if I do say so myself.

We have been to the grocery store 5 times this week. And we still have tomorrow to wait and see. Watch him come and eat all the food we have here- oh, speak of the devil The doorbell just rang. Rang once. Rang twice. And he's inside! "Hi, Pat! Talked to Jordan lately?" He asks, and I casually answer, "Writing her a letter right now, I'll put in that you said hi." Thankfully he didn't tackle me from the side and read this letter, now that would be tragic, instead he went to the kitchen. Alas, he comes back into the study with a plate of snadwhiches and reads over my shoulder. Now, I must say nice things about him or he will cry....oh well, not literally. But, oh you get what I mean Jordan. Don't you?

I wish you could see the things I bought for the house yesterday, while Rosa and I were out, little sister. We are thinking of redoing the living room to be an earthly tone sort of meditation area. I don't think Chris thoroughly enjoys the idea of turning her sport/rec room into a palaties/yoga room. But, I told him, that he has girls in his life now and sports and rec aren't as important to them as palaties and yoga. He actually fell for that one, he thought you and katie would be interested in palaties. When I know very well, you would kill yourself before doing palaties right Jo?

Anyway, Jason says hi and I must draw up plans for the room. I will write you again and I hope you are doing well. When you have time please, explain this whole you and Katie fighting thing. It's rather confusing. The dress needs to be baby blue though Jordan, I'm sure you can find a suitable dress for my maid of honor, it can't be that hard.

Toodles,
Pat & Jason

[JordanCortes]

Big sis!

Sorry, it took me so long to respond to your last letter. So much has gone on and you probably know the gist of it. If not, I can always repeat I suppose. Katie has decided to live with her Grandparents and well she left already. I suppose it was for the best, I mean we were arguing and she was changing. I guess, that it was good for her to get around her own family, get to know herself more than she knows us, right? Any either way, I suppose she would be happier...among her own flesh and blood, and not near her dad.

Onto a more cheerier subject, no I don't believe Chris or Justin would like you redoing the living room into a yoga/palaties central. I can't say I will enjoy it as much as you do either. But, if you must I will do the palaties with you because, you love me so and as do I. I would love to see what colors you have picked out for the room though, you do have good taste in colors and textures. Meditation doesn't have to be earthly though. You can have pastels and light colors, so don't set on browns and greens, please no.

The dress I have picked out isn't poofy it's more of a semi-casual evening gown dress. It's a light pale baby blue and is a tank top. Though there is light blue lace that frills off the edges of the top. It goes down past my feet so no one can see my shoes, and it comes with a hair ribbon to tie my hair up with. I doubt I would do that though, tying my hair up is definitly not something I perfer to wear to a wedding. Down, and straight, that might work.

Tell, Jason I say hi and bye for me. Because, I have to go now...sorry it's not as long as usual, but I have so much to do. Plus these pills are making me more fatigued than usual and the doctor says that is nothing to worry about, but you know doctors these days, they know nothing except how to count money. Make a mistake in your prescription they don't notice, pay the wrong amount of money and they're all over you. They're cooks these days.

Toodleoo,
Jordan

[JordanCortes]

Jordan,

The wedding is off. Don't ask why or who decided, it's just off. I want you to have no further contact with Patricia Mary Mason and if I see that you have, you will be severely punished.

Chris

[JordanCortes]

Christopher Matthew Cortes,

OK here's the thing, I'm pissed. You sit and call off the flipping wedding, AFTER I make up all the plans and then tell me not to have contact with Pat anymore. Well, here's a little bit of information for you dear brother of mine. I'm still gonna talk to Pat, I'm still gonna visit her. I'm still gonna consider her my sister. And if you have a problem with that, then I suggest you take it up with the voices inside my head. You have put me through enough rubbish in my life already and I don't necessarily need anymore. I ran out of pills so my anger is easily surfaced, I would watch your step Chris because, well if you make the wrong move...OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!

Another thing, my birthday is coming up, and I don't expect a big shin-dig type of thing. But, I will compile a list of people I want to be there, and believe me dear brother; you aren't going to be on it. So don't try to talk your way into. Pat will be on it though, and it will be held in the ballroom on the third floor. Unelss of course you, like myself, have gotten sick of the glass that surrounds my life. If you have then let me know when the moving date is and I will see what I can do then. My 14th birthday is normally nothing to celebrate, along with my 13th and my 12th and 11th and need I go on? Just make sure you aren't anywhere near the party when it goes on, eh?

Tell Justin that I say hi and to stay out of my room. And tell Jason to write to me more, because now that Pat has been exiled from the Cortes family household, he has no way of contacting me through letters. So let him write me some letters or something and send them via owl. I mean, honestly. He's 14 almost 15, don't you think he would completely understand with what is going on? He's mature. So tell him where I really am, eh? And for God's sake, Christopher learn to write longer letters.

Sincerely,
Jordan Elizabeth Cortes

[JordanCortes]

Jordan,

I was going through a few of mim's things and well, I found a stack of letters addressed to you. I have enclosed one letter, and I intened on sending you one each week, hoping that that will keep you at least a bit sane, if not more.

Chris

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Dearest Jordan,

I know there are many things that are going on in your life right now, and I know that I am not there for you. And for this I am terribly sorry, I always thought I would be there for your first everything. Now, I realize that your first everything will be celebrated without me. Your first wedding, first child, first graduation, first everything. Jordan there are so many things that I wish I could express to you through these letters that I write when I am ill, but I know that it will never be so. My hand aches with every swirl of my e or every dot of my i. Jordan in a few weeks you will be turning 14, and 14 is one of the hardest ages of your life, dear girl. But, you must understand that I will always be there to look over you. I am going to shine down on you, and help you through times you think you can not survive.

Jordan there a few things I must tell you, a few things that were never revealed to you or your father. Your brothers have been sworn to keep silent about it until I feel right in telling you. When you were born, you were the life in my eyes, the twinkle in my smile, and the happiness in my laughter. I would stare down at you and just smile. Your father, on the other hand, did not feel the same. He didn't want any contact with you, for you were now born into his world and you weren't worthy. Your father was a cold-hearted soul and he belittled everyone who wasn't him. He even disrespected me, and I fear that he never really cared or loved me. That is beside the point, the point is; when you turned 2, Adam left your life forever. He didn't want to have part in our family.

You know of what I tell you, for you can not remember that far back into your unhappy childhood. You slowly regain your memory when you are 5. Before that is nothing but, a gray glaze over your eyes. I have written a series of letters; revealing that past to you. Your brother, Chris has them in his possession and is instructed to send one each week. Each letter describes a turning point in your life. Jordan I think now, is the time to tell you the truth. So many secrets have been hidden about you, and I wish to reveal them. Remember one think, Mi'Ja. You are special. You spark a light in everyone's life that you know. You have something unique about yourself, something that makes others pay attention. Don't ever lose that, for that...would be tragic.

"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."

Love dearly and always,
Mother