Post by Ariane Chan on Feb 23, 2007 12:34:18 GMT
Dear mum,
How are you? I heard the weather over there hasn’t been so great. It’s been a hectic week over here in Hogwarts. I caught some idiots trying to bully Harmony, but I gave them a right telling off – don’t worry, I didn’t hit anyone, nor did I cast a spell on them. I’m not that stupid, plus they were in the year below. I just can’t believe people can be so arrogant and horrible. I sometimes can’t find any good in the world. Anyhow, lessons have been fine, as usual. Snape has it in for me, but I’m ignoring him, as you’ve always advised. Everything’s good, so don’t worry about us.
Harmony’s doing well too. Her Quidditch for the Hufflepuff team is going great, even though I’m worried about her getting hurt out there. She’s bound to break something, I know, and thanks to Madam Pomfrey, healing will be much quicker in the wizard world, but the thought of Harmony hurting herself frightens me. I’ve always been able to protect her, but now that I can’t, I’m more scared than she is. I’m sorry I can’t protect her for you. Even if I joined the Gryffindor team, that would not be a help. Even if I got onto the team, I’d technically be against her in matches. I hope she’ll be okay. She’s still always so small and defenceless. Thank goodness I was there the other day to save her from those Slytherin boys or she would have been in a spot of trouble. However, there is a good side to Harmony joining the school team. I think it’s helped bolster her confidence a little.
I haven’t much to say, mum. I miss you, as usual. I don’t hate it here, and I don’t want you to worry, but it can be difficult at times. I’m really grateful Aurora’s with me, but don’t ever tell her that. She makes the day seem brighter when I can’t summon the strength. Sometimes her happiness drives me insane, but I’ve learnt that it’s the only way she keeps herself going. Just like the only way I keep myself going is by being myself. I’ve learnt to cope with Aurora just like she’s learnt to do the same with me, and we appreciate each other’s personalities more now. She’s probably the greatest friend someone like me can have. She’s the only friend I’ve ever had, anyway, aside from you and Harmony. I can’t believe I’m writing this, never mind thinking it, but… I guess I have to accept reality sometimes instead of hiding away. Thank you for helping me realise that. I know I’ve told you this before, mum, but sometimes I think our relationship is more like best friends than mother and daughter. And I really appreciate it.
And thank you again, mum. Even though we rarely see each other, and we’re so far apart, your letters still help to keep me going. In these letters I can truly write like myself, instead of being “antisocial”, as they call it, or referring to my angry self with no control. I can just be me. I love Harmony very much, but at the end of the day, I can’t tell her my problems just yet. I’m protecting her so much that I don’t want her image of me ruined. I’ve got to be strong for both of us. I know you’ll say “rubbish”, mum, but you know I’ll never change that. I admittedly love Aurora too, and she’s even my cousin, but… it’s not the same. I love you so much, mum. I can’t imagine life without you. Thank you. Believe me when I say thank you. Why am I being so honest and sentimental? I have a feeling things will end soon, and if I don’t say them now, I’ll never get the chance to say them again.
Which leads me onto why I feel this… I’ve been having strange dreams recently. I can’t describe them, but they… contain images that, to be honest, scare me. I haven’t felt this scared by dreams, or should I say, nightmares, in many years now. I don’t believe they mean anything, but I have to say something to get it off my chest, even if I can’t describe it to make you understand. In fact, I doubt you’d want to know what I can see. It’s so disturbing. They give me a sense of dread that something will happen soon, something not nice at all. Something bad that will happen to you. I may sound paranoid, you’ll probably laugh because you know Harmony and I both hate things like Divination and I scorn it, but… I’m sure of my hunch. Keep yourself safe. Watch out for anything even slightly different. I can’t be there to protect you.
Give Aunt Vanessa my regards. Thinking of you always.
Love,
Ari
How are you? I heard the weather over there hasn’t been so great. It’s been a hectic week over here in Hogwarts. I caught some idiots trying to bully Harmony, but I gave them a right telling off – don’t worry, I didn’t hit anyone, nor did I cast a spell on them. I’m not that stupid, plus they were in the year below. I just can’t believe people can be so arrogant and horrible. I sometimes can’t find any good in the world. Anyhow, lessons have been fine, as usual. Snape has it in for me, but I’m ignoring him, as you’ve always advised. Everything’s good, so don’t worry about us.
Harmony’s doing well too. Her Quidditch for the Hufflepuff team is going great, even though I’m worried about her getting hurt out there. She’s bound to break something, I know, and thanks to Madam Pomfrey, healing will be much quicker in the wizard world, but the thought of Harmony hurting herself frightens me. I’ve always been able to protect her, but now that I can’t, I’m more scared than she is. I’m sorry I can’t protect her for you. Even if I joined the Gryffindor team, that would not be a help. Even if I got onto the team, I’d technically be against her in matches. I hope she’ll be okay. She’s still always so small and defenceless. Thank goodness I was there the other day to save her from those Slytherin boys or she would have been in a spot of trouble. However, there is a good side to Harmony joining the school team. I think it’s helped bolster her confidence a little.
I haven’t much to say, mum. I miss you, as usual. I don’t hate it here, and I don’t want you to worry, but it can be difficult at times. I’m really grateful Aurora’s with me, but don’t ever tell her that. She makes the day seem brighter when I can’t summon the strength. Sometimes her happiness drives me insane, but I’ve learnt that it’s the only way she keeps herself going. Just like the only way I keep myself going is by being myself. I’ve learnt to cope with Aurora just like she’s learnt to do the same with me, and we appreciate each other’s personalities more now. She’s probably the greatest friend someone like me can have. She’s the only friend I’ve ever had, anyway, aside from you and Harmony. I can’t believe I’m writing this, never mind thinking it, but… I guess I have to accept reality sometimes instead of hiding away. Thank you for helping me realise that. I know I’ve told you this before, mum, but sometimes I think our relationship is more like best friends than mother and daughter. And I really appreciate it.
And thank you again, mum. Even though we rarely see each other, and we’re so far apart, your letters still help to keep me going. In these letters I can truly write like myself, instead of being “antisocial”, as they call it, or referring to my angry self with no control. I can just be me. I love Harmony very much, but at the end of the day, I can’t tell her my problems just yet. I’m protecting her so much that I don’t want her image of me ruined. I’ve got to be strong for both of us. I know you’ll say “rubbish”, mum, but you know I’ll never change that. I admittedly love Aurora too, and she’s even my cousin, but… it’s not the same. I love you so much, mum. I can’t imagine life without you. Thank you. Believe me when I say thank you. Why am I being so honest and sentimental? I have a feeling things will end soon, and if I don’t say them now, I’ll never get the chance to say them again.
Which leads me onto why I feel this… I’ve been having strange dreams recently. I can’t describe them, but they… contain images that, to be honest, scare me. I haven’t felt this scared by dreams, or should I say, nightmares, in many years now. I don’t believe they mean anything, but I have to say something to get it off my chest, even if I can’t describe it to make you understand. In fact, I doubt you’d want to know what I can see. It’s so disturbing. They give me a sense of dread that something will happen soon, something not nice at all. Something bad that will happen to you. I may sound paranoid, you’ll probably laugh because you know Harmony and I both hate things like Divination and I scorn it, but… I’m sure of my hunch. Keep yourself safe. Watch out for anything even slightly different. I can’t be there to protect you.
Give Aunt Vanessa my regards. Thinking of you always.
Love,
Ari
