Izy

[Ariane Chan]

*smacks head*

Yes. Wahey! That means I don't have to write something! I have no darn time!!! *throws confetti*

[Ivy Tunstall]

I emailed Lucy: Alex's poem and Winnie's article.
Still to email: Ashy's prose and Lily's article (because I'm waiting on them to confirm changes).

I'm quite excited about having got into Thursday Singers! (Although Wai San and I won't be able to come to all of the rehearsal next week - Philsoc Christmas Dinner starts at 5:45pm! *looks dismayed*) My mum says that I have to ask what you wear to concerts... I guess the only one that is relevant for now is the St Ann's one.

[Ariane Chan]

Yay for emailing them. :D
I still have yet to get all my articles... *sigh*

So am I! :P

I think a lot of people will leave early next week. We'll survive. :)

For St Ann's we wear a white shirt and black trousers.

Today's busking at MGS was... interesting. We did carols (like our ones but with boys' parts) and the ice was totally fake and terrible to use. -_-;;

[Ariane Chan]

I think my email's playing up! D: So when you send me the Book Review please send it to my other email - the one I registered on 4Houses with on all my accounts? Please, that would be great. Thanks! I'll edit it when I come home...

[Ivy Tunstall]

I've sent to both emails.

I went and knocked on Lulu's door, so I'm hoping to get it soon.

[Ariane Chan]

Thank you!

I still haven't got Lulu/Sheanna's article, but thanks for the Book Review.

Btw, there is absolutely no point in rushing Lucy. I wanted to tell you this today but was rushing home 'cause Hannah was picking me up. Anyway, point is, Pickering is leaving on Friday and she's got end of term reports to do; therefore I highly doubt that 1) Lucy can make it for tomorrow when she hasn't even got all the articles yet (Charlotte having failed to produce one) and 2) Pickering is too busy to really edit an even longer Scrawl. :P Therefore I came to the conclusion we should just let Davies edit it. Not ideal, I know that, but I don't want to do that to Lucy, Pickering or us. I hope you understand why I've made this decision.

Therefore Lucy will make it for Friday, Davies will have the weekend, and we will print it on Monday, hopefully. And hopefully by then Charlotte will have written me something!

[Ivy Tunstall]

Sometimes I wonder if you ever actually listen to me or just nod along... we decided that I would edit Lulu and Sheanna's article, since it was so late that I'd already had my interview! I still haven't received it, though. *sigh* I emailed Lulu but I doubt I will get it so I will go find her tomorrow whilst wielding my flash stick!

That's fine - we'll just have to proof read it carefully... but remember we don't have much time left. We also need to get the timetable for January sorted out. Ach. When are your exams in January?

[Ariane Chan]

Oh. Yes.

*smacks head again*

Actually, for your information I forgot. I was listening. I'm just tired and stressed and I've realised because of the magazine I will be very late for some of my work deadlines...

General Studies you already know.
Eng Lit (2): 19 January
Psychology: 21 January

I think. :/ Might be the other way round.

[Ariane Chan]

Called Lucy. :P

I think there is something wrong with me. More than ever. -_-;; Yes, you may rub it in my face now. :P

Anyhoos. Basically, talked to my mum about tomorrow... It would be rather... well, inconvenient for her to go to WGS (traffic-wise and time-wise), so I don't want to stress her out. :/ I hope you don't mind. I texted Emma to tell her I won't be in school at all tomorrow and that you guys would all be making your own way there; I also told her to organise travel with you. Perhaps, like I said over the phone, you could go with her and the other Emma (and Wai San too) on the McCarthy blue school buses - they're very convenient and Emma does the asking very nicely. :)

Again, really sorry. I myself will arrive at MHSG pretty early... probably 3:50 p.m. to make mum's life easier. Then she'll go get Ken. I'll probably bring a book as I wait all alone... :P

This means I won't be cleaning with you, btw. I did consider it, but I'm way too busy to be thinking about cleaning (and the thought of cleaning up today's mess makes me want to be sick lol). It also means my poor mum doesn't have to make a hundred journeys in the car... >< I feel really guilty... she's always chaffeuring me/you/Ting or someone else around and although she says she doesn't mind I still feel like it's my fault... ><

I think that's all I need to report... I think! My memory is like a sieve. It seems to be the case with you, Ting and Lucy... I think I'm losing my mind. :(

EDIT: We will take you home tomorrow, though, remember! :P

EDIT 2: Remember to remind Davies I will email her tomorrow! Thank you!!

[Ivy Tunstall]

I don't mind at all - can get the bus as I said and there's no reason why your mum should have to make an unnecessary detour. I was more hoping that you would be coming to clean - I am much more worried about trying to clean the Common Room on my own, especially when it's likely to be a tough job. I do understand you being busy and stressed and feeling that you could just do without it but... there have been times when it really didn't suit me either but I stayed because I couldn't in conscience leave you to do it on your own. So thanks a lot. Please make sure to make good use of the time.

So I'm guessing - you didn't actually say it - that Lucy is making it and there's been some point of miscommunication? Meaning that you don't need me to email the article to you to put in?

[Ariane Chan]

Goodness me, Izy, thanks for making me feel dreadully guilty.

I wouldn't have decided to do it unless I was desperate. And I am desperate. It's okay if you can't understand that - I wasn't expecting you too, since you're not in my position.

I already said: you do not have to clean the Common Room unless you really feel like tackling on your own. If I were in your position I myself would most likely not do it without you. To say your presence gives me confidence to clean isn't particularly accurate, but it helps make me feel less lonely. It's your decision anyway. I've made mine and I will live with it. Most likely it'll make me feel much happier about myself but dreadfully guilty too. ::) I suppose I can feel less guilty about making my mum drive me to school, though. There's some consolation in this dark hole of misery in my life. :P See, I did weigh up the pros and cons. I'm afraid cleaning fell short of my decision by a bit. You make it seem like I would choose this lightly - which I did not.

Yes, Lucy will make it... It's a bit complicated and I'm afraid I'll relay the wrong impression again. Basically, Lucy will put the Poll, Withington Focus and Charlotte's article in her free tomorrow (when all of it will be in her inbox) and send it to me. I will look through it briefly to make sure all articles are there and send it onto Davies. I think that's the plan.

She left the front cover at school, y'see; one of the reasons why she can't finish it until tomorrow.

[Ivy Tunstall]

Viv - I think I understand the feeling of being desperately busy, even if the fact that I place obligations to you high on my priority list has apparently concealed that. It's up to you, rather than me, how guilty you feel! Apparently not too much so since you're reacting in such a way as to put some of the guilt back onto me for making you feel bad. I'm sure you did think carefully about it - I was just reminded where I am on your priority list, I guess. And I don't want to make you feel bad, just to point out that I feel a little let down after doing my very best not to let you down.

I don't want to argue with you about it. I think that I will have to do it, however, because we haven't given the head cleaner sufficient notice that she needs to get someone else to clean. I don't want to do it on my own but don't think I really have much choice. So I suppose I will have to cope. Again, I don't really have much choice.

I hope that Lucy will remember to email all of the articles to her school email that she'll need! I'll remember to go and talk to Miss Davies; don't worry about that.

[Ariane Chan]

That's my point, Izy. You make me feel guilty by implying - okay, saying now - that I place you low on my priority list. That upsets me. Two years ago I would just nod and smile and pretend it doesn't affect me, but it does. If I am to be honest, I always put people ahead of myself - not trying to make myself seem like a martyr here, but take the magazine for instance: I knew you would be dreadfully busy with Cambridge so I offered to do most of the editing. That's fine. That's absolutely fine, even though I know I'm too busy, technically, to do it. I just wanted you to be less stressed. I just wanted to help you. I feel it's unfair of you to say you're lower on my priority list just because I want to sacrifice an hour of helping you clean the Common Room when I am utterly utterly desperate. You were desperate for Cambridge? Well, now I am desperate to do my work, which, mainly because of the magazine, I have barely done over the last few days. I have committed myself to other things, such as Quidditch, such as music concerts. I did not mean to give up on cleaning, it just happens to be dispensible at the moment. Had I not had a free day I would not have chosen to do this, but I do. This is not about me putting you lower on my priority list, and it upsets me to have you... accuse me of doing that. You don't know what's on my priority list. I'm not going to ever assume I know yours! I know - well, I hope, since I can't know for sure - that I am appreciated and I will not ever assume you don't appreciate me just because you can't clean a Common Room with you.

*sigh* I'm not looking for an argument, Izy. I just want to be able to say something if you upset me. I am able to do that more nowadays, but it seems when I was more placid and unable to argue back and just take a beating that my friendship with you was easier to... do. It seems this whole, take time off each other thing, is not working... at all. Blah. Trust me, the last thing I want to do is be typing here right now. I should be sleeping. I currently want to be sick... My physical health has been deteriorating these last few nights... I don't really know why but it's made me feel even worse and I really am not trying to pick a fight. I am just upset - maybe you might think I'm being oversensitive. But it upset me and if you were upset by me you'd say so too.

You don't have to clean. There is someone who cleans after us. If we forget they do it, Izy. Just thought you should know.

Anyway... leaving that issue, thank you (for Davies). Good Ivy picture, btw. I don't know why, but I like it a lot.

[Ivy Tunstall]

Fine. You've got me convinced. Never mind.

I'm afraid that I don't usually say now if you've upset me - far less than I used to. I know that when I do, it upsets you and so I don't want to do that... so I don't usually say anything now unless I'm really very bothered or already in a particularly bad mood.

Are you sure that someone else cleans? How do you know that?

I'm glad you like the picture. It's supposed to be 'calm, livid fury', brought on by Charlie's absence from Quidditch.

[Ariane Chan]

I don't usually say it unless it upsets me a lot. So I think we're even there!

As for cleaning, yes, someone cleans it after us - cleans what we don't clean, anyway. You're probably seen him around. He cleans on every day we don't too. He's in his late thirties to forties, half-black I think. I've bumped into him a few times when Singers was at WGS and I was leaving through the Common Room.

Anyway, the main reason why I'm posting here again is...

Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod, Izy. There is a video of US on Facebook. No, I kid you not. A video. Of us. Singing. And do you know when? When we were raising money for charity by performing carols in the entrance hall. Yes. That time. Do you remember when Niamh/Toni B/Bex W asked us to sing 'Angels' by Robbie Williams? And then Happy Birthday?

Well, it's that video.

My God, the shame and the embarrassment.

And this video has been on there since this January! A year! A whole year! And random people have commented on it! Gak!

Chloe's in it, with her black-dyed hair. I look short, you look like... you. Lol. It's all very nostalgic...

Oh yes, Toni was the one who uploaded. She was the one who filmed it on her phone, after all. Bah.